Speaking of Friends

I did that research on the average number of friends one might expect to have in a lifetime and ran across this article. Check it out. Sorta puts things into perspecti...

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Missing Persons

Someone needs to do a study on the average number of friends a human makes, keeps and loses over the course of his/her lifetime. Maybe someone has and I just need to do my research. This morning when I woke up after another uncomfortable night of sleep due to minor surgery I had on Monday, I rolled over out of bed to examine myself and the damage in the bathroom mirror. Battling vertigo through the night and this morning, the walk felt more like...

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Such a Beautiful Disaster

Most of my close friends are guys because friendships are easier. They're not as needy as we women can sometimes be, but they can be just as messy (sticky, tricky, and lots of technical difficulties). Still, I have chosen my poison. Yesterday, he (who shall remain nameless) and I had yet another misunderstanding. Nothing new there. We've become rather proficient at occasionally getting under one another's skin and on each other's nerves. He thinks...

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My Own Special Gift - Part II

Vous m'avez convaincu qu'il était sûr de vous aimer et maintenant je ne sache pas s'arrêter.Boy Meets GirlWhen I was twelve, my best friend Lisa was the same person she is today. The most confident kid I knew. Everyone wanted to be her friend and all the boys thought she was cute. I, on the other hand, sorely lacked the confidence she had. And the boys. Let's just say they were too pre-occupied to notice :-). However, there was this one boy, Ian...

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My Own Special Gift

Thanks Cole for encouraging me to share my own special gift - the ability to hurt someone so deeply that they spend 20 years plotting the perfect revenge. I didn't know I could evoke such a drastic reaction in anyone, much less someone I knew before I even had breasts.In one of my earlier blog entries, I said that I would write about the crazy men in my life. I'd been holding out because I like men. My dad's a man. Both my brothers are men. Some...

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There's This Guy

I should be mad with him. In fact, I went on and on to my best friend about how I wasn't going to answer my cell the next time he called. About how I wasn't going to e-mail him back right away, maybe not even check my e-mail for a week or two and let his messages (if there were any) sit in my in-box. But....(long sigh), I didn't do any of that. He wrote me. I replied the same day. He called. I didn't even check the caller ID before answering my cell....

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Suspended...

SuspendedI hang Arms outstretchedShoulders separatedPalms face upEagles soar aboveWait for my presenceVultures circling beneathExpect my demiseLook to the hillsThey are silentYet have spokenMany times beforeCan you hearIf you do not listenCan you learnIf you do not hearSuspendedMy body Spins on an axisLegs dangle like ornamentsToes pointed toward the earthClouds form halosCrowning my locksWinds howl echoesPiercing my soulSwaying to and fro, with...

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A Dream

Maybe I dreamed him up... this prince.A DreamMary J. BligeChorus:A dreamA simple fantasyThat I wish was realityThat you come knocking at my doorAnd we relive this dream once moreLast night I dreamedThat you were here with meAnd we were in each other's armsIt was oh so heavenlyYou held me close to youAnd whispered in my earLet's spend the night togetherSharing love beyond compareAs we danced to the melodyWe had so much to share(And the music stopped)In...

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No Matter How Small The Flame

Last night, I decided to take a long relaxing bath. I like my bath water to be nearly scolding hot, so I only turn the cold water on slightly when filling the tub. I poured a capful of lavender and chamomile bubble bath beneath the stream of running water. Then I lit a two inch candle placed in one of the many uniquely shaped candle holders that I've collected over the years. People like to give me candle holders. This particular one in the shape...

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Awaking to Love and Real Life

I was asleep. The phone rang and because I knew royalty was on the other end, I awakened with a smile, stretched and answered "hello" in a sing song voice. That's the way every girl should wake up in the morning--- feeling like a princess. Honestly, I fully expected my ladies in waiting to enter the room, serve me breakfast in bed, run down my schedule of activities for the day and hold up outfits in front of me to choose from for each event. As...

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Something Sweet and Soothing

Last weekend I got really depressed. I had a misunderstanding with someone which resulted in me having several severe anxiety attacks. I thought my heart was going to explode and the tears that I normally hold back in such instances couldn't be stopped. There was no one I could call or even wanted to call. So, I did what comes natural to most women in my situation. I went downstairs to the kitchen and fixed myself a bowl of cookies & cream. As...

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Just in case...

Just in case he ever forgets, I left him this reminder. If he finds it, great. If he doesn't, it wasn't meant to be. I have told him. He knows. I have asked him, I'm still waiting. I will wait forever.Pour votre altesseJe t'aime. Vous êtes l'amour vrai de ma vie et je veux être cette manière avec toi pour toujours. Je veux toujours svp à toi n'aime aucune autre femme. Séjour avec moi. Être avec moi. Me choisir....

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Changes

My life is changing. I'm moving into a new townhouse, finishing my graduate studies, jump starting my writing career. Not to mention the fact that I have relationships that require my nurturing tender love and care even more lately. All of this may sound exciting, but it gets exhausting. Every day, I wonder why these changes in my life have to happen all at once. Years ago, I read a book by Danielle Steele called "Changes" that included a poem with...

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No Regrets

No Regrets... EverHe asked if I would have any regrets if we made loveI answered with a question of my ownRegrets? Kissing, hugging, sleeping next to youHaving you between my legsEating, drinking, licking meHaving you in my mouthTasting, licking, drinking you, Being between your legs, While you're in my sanctum, on my back, from the back?Never baby, ever.And then we made love for the next fifty years.We all should be so blessed... to find someone...

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Words of Wisdom from Miss Maya about Married Men

They Went HomeThey went home and told their wives, that never once in all their lives, had they known a girl like me,But...They went home.They said my house was licking clean, no word I spoke was ever mean, I had an air of mystery,But...They went home.My praises were on all men's lips, they liked my smile, my wit, my hips, they'd spend one night, or two or three.But...--Maya AngelouI think the poem speaks for itself. For...

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What I Couldn't Say

Ever wanted to tell someone something, but couldn't bring yourself to utter the words? Because you were unsure or didn't want to reveal how vulnerable he/she made you feel? Because you feared the truth would give away your power? In order to protect yourself from possible disappointment? To keep from sticking your foot in your mouth? It happens, right. Even to the best of us. Times when we could say things that we know would put us on front street...

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Baby Smiles

Last Sunday, my daughter and I had to sit in the balcony at church. It’s been that way for the past couple of Sundays because it’s a new year (not to mention our severe tardiness). Anyway, it doesn’t bother us to sit up there although it takes forever to get out at the end of service.Well, as I listened to the message and tried to understand how it applied to my own life, I started to notice the cute little brown baby boy who was being held by a...

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Remember When Friends

Last week, I was talking to a co-worker and friend and I asked him if he'd realized that we'd become "Remember When" friends. Seems like just yesterday that we started working together. Now, our conversations are frequently peppered with the opening phrase, "Rememeber when." I guess that's a good thing, you know-- having people in your life who have been around long enough to reminisce about your past. Being in someone else's life long enough to...

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